Brother wonder

My family has been on a vacation this week. It’s been super and different. We’re still a foursome, just not the same foursome I’m used to. I’m missing my spouse; my eldest has added his. Still, in the midst of these random thoughts that hit at odd times, we’re having fun. Our second night was … More Brother wonder

Changing channels

As time passes, you may feel the sting of grief less, but it doesn’t mean it doesn’t still affect you. Sometimes it leads to new habits without even realizing it. I was in the car the other day, listening to my favorite Christian radio show, when the topic turned to marriage. I immediately hit the … More Changing channels

The List

I found this in my grief journal. It was written on February 25, 2016 Three months today – it’s hard to believe. Death comes but time marches on. He left me, and when I didn’t know if I could go on without him, autopilot kicks in, and I did:             I’ve gone to work             … More The List

He still speaks

My phone buzzed and woke me up this morning at 6 a.m. It was a message from my pastor: “If you don’t mind, we are gonna have our wise man this morning. Is it OK for you?” Attached was a video from one of my late husband’s sermons. If I don’t mind…What could I say? … More He still speaks

I feel for him

I’ve had him on my mind all week. Thinking about how he’s feeling on the last few days left in the first year; remembering my days, yet knowing he will experience them in different ways, with different feelings. His grief is not mine, but still shared in some small way. He’s my brother. He lost … More I feel for him