A Clean Slate

Happy New Year! Here we are, facing the year 2020. It’s a new decade, an opportunity to start fresh with a clean slate. The possibilities are endless.

Or, is it just another day?

It’s up to you, really. It can be a chance to change direction by throwing off the old and starting anew, or to keep dragging the baggage of the past as an excuse to stay just as you are.

I realized as I thought about 2020 being a new decade, that I didn’t do that in 2010. It was just another year. I was still working through reverse culture shock from our recent return to the States after twenty years overseas. I was here, but didn’t want to be here, or at least wasn’t sure what I wanted. I just worked to survive each day.

Survival seemed to be a theme for that decade, as my husband passed away, my children left the nest, and I ended the ten years as a widow, living in a condo. In January 2010, I would never have thought January 2020 would be so totally different, yet, here I am.

In case you think I’m depressed with the thought, I’m not — which surprises even me as I write this. I think when I heard the word decade the other day, it was really God’s way of reminding me to dream again, and I’m going to take him up on that challenge.

20190516_160512-01You see, I’ve always been a dreamer. Every year, since I was in high school or college at least, I would reflect on the year past and make plans for the year ahead. Actually, it wasn’t plans as much as prayers. I would put my dreams out there on the page, because I always wrote them down, and write out my prayers to God for his guidance through it all.

I realized I haven’t done that in a while. It’s part of that grief fog that gets us off balance and out of sorts. But, here I am again, ready to look forward in hope and anticipation of what he has ahead for me. It’s terrifying and exciting all at the same time. It’s been a long time since I just made plans, just dreamed, for me. My husband’s gone, my boys are grown, I’ve come full circle to the single girl longing to serve God with her life.

I find comfort and hope in a book written by a pretty depressed prophet (Jeremiah), who was actually one my favorites.

Because of the Lord’s faithful love we do not perish, for his mercies never end. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness!*

I have a clean slate for a new decade, year, day. 

What about you?

God’s forgiveness and mercy make that possible, and because of that we can say Happy New Year.

Grace and Peace

*Lamentations 3:22-23 (CSB)


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