Every day in our walk with Jesus is an act of faith, as we learn to depend on Him to guide us through this temporary life. Yet, there are some moments or perhaps even opportunities that come along which require a greater trust.
Part of the grief journey and even life in general is learning to do something outside your comfort zone. Perhaps you’ve been used to your spouse handling things, or your parents, or even a boss, but now, you’re on your own, and you’ve got to make the decision…seemingly on your own. I’m thankful that even though I’ve lost my husband, my friend, my engineer, my wise one, I haven’t lost God, and I’m holding on to Him more than ever when faced with taking a big step in my life.
And you know what I’ve found? He’s holding on to me! I’ve found thoughts running through my mind in the past months like: What would Raouf do? or, Oh, I can’t imagine Raouf would be happy with this. Yet, in the end, though I take from all the years of experience in living with a wise man, I ultimately have to look higher for the wisdom to today’s issue…today’s decision. Because, it’s no longer Raouf and me; it’s just me. That changes the equation, changes the reference point, changes the outcome.
Jesus tells me that’s OK. Relying on Him is ultimately what it’s all about anyway. Raouf and I did when making decisions together, and now I must when making decisions alone.
If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. (James 1:5)
So here I am, stepping out in faith and seeking wisdom from above for the hard decisions that lead me down new paths in this life. Yet, I will not fear, for He is with me and has all the Wisdom of this world and beyond at His disposal. What could be better than that? I’m determined to keep in step with the Spirit!
What about you?
Grace and Peace