Darkness before the light

We recently had a time change. It has not gone well with me…or my cat. She cannot figure out why I’m not up at  5 a.m. and has taken to lying at the top of my head and purring from about 4 a.m. onward.

Getting up on time is one thing, but driving home from work in the dark is another. I used to come home and walk and write for a few hours each evening; now I want to sleep.

I’ve never been at ease in the darkness. It’s hard to make your way in the shadows.

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When I went through not one but two weeks in this state of mind, I began to ask God what it meant. I don’t remember struggling so before.

That’s when I realized it (or more accurately, he brought to mind) — I let the shadows into my mind, and they’d affected my state of being. What sweeps away the shadows? Light.

You, O LORD, keep my lamp burning; my God turns my darkness into light.*

That’s when I knew I had to make some changes. I came home from work, and instead of slumping into my easy (or lazy) chair, I went for a walk — even in the darkness. Then, I came home and turned on lots of lights, to chase away the physical darkness of the yet early evening. It wasn’t time to give in. I’ve also turned down the heat in my house, to keep me cooler and less-likely to grow drowsy too early.

God reminded me that, though the seasons change, he’s got places for me to go, things for me to do, opportunities for me to enjoy his presence and Word.

Feel the darkness affecting your spirit? Focus on the Light and let him chase those shadows away!

Grace and Peace

Psalm 18:28 (NIV).

2 thoughts on “Darkness before the light

  1. Yes, yes, yes! That was so good, Carol. And that’s how I’ve been feeling. Thank you for the encouragement!

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